Looking around, I can always find faces that I’ve known for a while and can read like the back of my hand.. But judge them, I cant. How do you know who a human is when people have the potential to change every minute, rather every second. Its odd to see how people still expect you to understand their every gesture.. But at the same time take a shot at being under some kind of disguise to make some mystery to themselves because they believe if people knew the real them they’d be vulnerable and hence, get hurt. 

Pain and pleasure. 

If only they knew how much they’d make everyone’s lives easier/better when honest with each other. It might seem immature, childish and naive at first.. But its tried and tested that the truth always, eventually, wins.

I love this illustration. So many talented people out there, who I know will hardly get the time to go up to their full potential, but that’s how this system is built.. The fittest survive. Even though this illustration doesn’t look very animated and gives a feel of a drawing because of the rough edges, I still like it.. Maybe because of my ridiculous and unconditional love for owls.

This illustration somehow felt right.

There will always be times when I look back onto my life and think about all the things that I should/should not have done. Everything could’ve been different if only there were some issues settles, and mistakes undone. Some things if unsaid would’ve been better for more than one person involved in the intricate web of complications that we draw each other, along with ourselves, into. It amuses me how so many things that I think about that had happened in the past may seem so tiny but would have a major long term effect on everyone involved, of which they may or may not be aware of, but that’s besides the point.


But then I unwind myself from all the psychological mess I’ve spread around me and think over the person I am and can be in the next interaction or thought or action or whatever it is that I am involved in consciously… If I want to become better or live regretting what I didn’t do and whatever mistakes I committed. Then I also realise, how I should be actually happy that I have come to a mental state better than my previous self and how I have grown up mentally and can keep growing in the positive direction. Also, how all the things that have ever happened to me or whatever I’ve done and achieved in my life so far hasn’t gone to waste, instead it made me the better person I am today who can reason with herself and accept winning and losing scenarios in the same fashion. 

Every morning, upon waking and becoming conscious of my surroundings and falling in a gloomy spirit, I think of anything that needs to be done by me in the course of the day, or even at that moment, particularly. Failing to bring up some material issue in my mind, I decide that, even if there is something, it can wait till I have day dreamed about everything beginning from my birth till the day that I’m writing my will on my death bed (for the family members that may or may not exist).


An amazing thing about imagining stuff is how you really don’t do all those things or say all those things that you’ve ‘supposedly’ planned, but it still gives our heart satisfaction enough to pass on as if we have actually have gone through with what we’ve imagined. Oh well, maybe some day I do become a scientist, or a woman who grows trees all over the world for a greener tomorrow, or race at a Grand Prix, maybe even study at the best universities all over the world all my life. Maybe none of those things, maybe all of the above.. Does it matter?


It matters. What you do/don’t do in this life will make the person you’re going to be eventually. Since, all your actions involve you going through a mental process that makes the decision for you. Now, you have complete control of what direction you want your decision to go to, but you may or may not use that. That’s where intentions and mental growth etc. come in. 


Coming back to our topic of how mornings start in a very dull fashion: Well, eventually I do make out of bed, and very lethargically, cleaning up and breakfast making and eating will take place after which I’m a new person. Worrying about what I can manage to fit into this short period of time called a day, how can those things get activated, worked upon and significant amount of work has been done on something that I may work on tomorrow if I make it out of bed.


Of course, feasting throughout the day is a norm. Especially in winters keeping my animal body well fed and hydrated is the only way to survive the stress of short days and breezy nights. Just as now a days my life is like a rut which is oddly very different but at the same time more or less the same. 


All my life, though, when the night falls, the drama begins. I begin to doubt my existence and purpose.. I have a couple of fights because the end of the day’s stress is catching up on me. 


The last sentence I’ve been thinking since a couple of months: I don’t even know if I’m a good person or a bad one yet, let alone what Ill become.


Goodnight.

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2011 is to over.

Exactly a year back when I was finishing 2010, I had many goals, and challenges set for me. One of them was ‘writing daily‘ which I couldn’t fulfill. I have published 117 posts on this blog, including this one.

To tell you the inside story, I couldn’t do most of what I planned.

I had a to-do list for 2011, which is ending with less accomplishments but thankfully more learning than ever. My purpose was to do few things regularly which would make me a better person for 2011. Gladly, I’m a better person today than what I was a year back.

This time, things are changed. Instead of thinking for what to do in 2012, I have been thinking what not to do.

I want to make it clear to myself, to stop doing few things. Which haven’t been very helping to me. The idea of Not To-Do List was introduced to my by my friend Ivana Sendecka, you can read her post about here.

This is what I’m not doing in 2012. I shall try my best to stand with them all.

I’ll not

• speak (and write) unless I have something truly important to state
• be fooled again by so-called experts
• hesitate to tell the gurus/experts that they are scammers and talkers
• join any majority
• take junk food more than 5 times a month
• make promise, unless I have strong will, time and energy to deliver it
• have too many minds
• say ‘I don’t have money’
• wait it to be prepared enough to ship
• put people in my wait
• work for free
• let the stress take over me

Instead of adding many new actions, focus on changing some currents can help me get better for 2012. This is the idea.

Starting this blog on Jan 01, 2011 was one of the best actions I took this year. Thank you so much of you for knowing and reading me.

I am very much ready to be a improved person and better writer. This blog should result into something big, I think. What you say?

Friends, also tell me what is at your end? What is your Not-To-Do in 2012? I believe you should have one too. Let’s communicate more this year, I would love your comments.

Happy New Year!!! Health, Peace and Money.

Your committed,

Waqas

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