This wasn’t planned, it just so happened that I opened up my email tonight (which I don’t in normal circumstances), I was expecting an email from my aunt, but instead I found an email from ‘Amna Khan’, (my aunt’s name is also Amna so I was confused there for a little while). Anyway, I don’t [...]

No one knows what makes your mind tick.. When you hear someone say something; read something in the morning newspaper; the bitterness of your morning coffee gets you thinking about bitter other-some-things.  


We all know that any sort of ‘ticking’ must have some emotion in the back of it all, which makes the ‘ticking’ longer and inspires an action, or feeling, from us.. That we may, or may not be proud of (but that’s another thing).
I have no idea what the scientific research on this says, but for me, its probably powered by emotions. For example, if I see someone fighting for a good cause, I’d feel happy, proud and get inspired to do something like that or at least take some action in support to that. 
Getting ‘ticked’ (in a positive way) is always healthy, and oh-so-important for a human to grow. If a human being isn’t inspired by a certain-something, how will we ever do things and become the people we’re supposed to become? Even if, say, one’s forced to study or not to lie, would that change the person inside? Maybe, a little. But even that’d be a short term change, and very superficial. In order for a human to grow truly, and from within, one needs to be inspired by something.. And that’ll only happen when something/someone ticks the inspiration button on. 

There’s something about public interaction/confrontation/appearance that creeps the shyer one’s out of social hangings. Maybe it’s just, maybe it isn’t. 


In the past few days I have been giving a go at writing. Even though I have been writing for a long while, although not on a regular basis, I never was confident in my writing, or my mental capability to do so. Recently though, I decided that it was important that I gave it a go and not worry about the outcome initially.. Because how will you know if you’re good, or bad, at something when you don’t take it seriously and test yourself out?


I always knew, deep in my gut, that I was never meant to be a diarist. You see, you need some kind of constant factor within yourself to be entertaining while at it. Even though I believe that everyone’s life is unique and worth even writing about.. Mine may not be all that charming written in cold, hard text – even if I’m the only one who thinks that, you always need it inside you to do something in order to be successful at it. 


To be a diarist, I think, you need to be a solid person from within, who’s a firm believer in what he believes in, and knows exactly how he feels about things (like my younger sister). I, on the other hand, am not at all that. I’d rather change all the time with no past records to prove that I have.. Experiment, even if it may be risky at times. There’s always a better opportunity in bold letters waiting for your attention, approval and action upon it. ‘Tis only the human brain that skips that, and goes instead to write his ego across the country in bold letters to have some sort of significance, deeper, and in many ways, better than others. 


I really don’t know why I cannot write posts that are much more entertaining, although they can be superficial and need little/no brains to muscle out concepts and ideas and perceptions through its lovely being. I wouldn’t say I was being arrogant.. Just that this is the sad truth that I have to live with and also, by. I’d rather that some lazy day I sit under the three with a diary in hand and writing all that has happened throughout the day.. But that doesn’t happen does it? Firstly because I don’t have many problems (thank God for that), secondly, I love life and refuse to be depressed/upset during it.. Even for a couple of hours.. Just doesn’t happen. So, instead I start writing about the reason behind any good/bad thing that has happened through the day and forget about the hurt and upsetting situation in a jiffy. Leaving me with no violent emotion.. And without that, how can I ever become a good diarist? 

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A meow awakens me each morning followed by, the cutest thing cats do, the pressing of one paw at a time on my back. Forcing my head from under the quilt, just to give Cherie the okay signal with a look, I see the most prettiest face on earth (at least to me) and I am taken over with emotion, and of course everyone knows what happens after that.

After that, breakfast comes along with the blessings of a heater (which people in villages cannot enjoy; I would know). I cant describe how wonderful it feels when an external things warms one up, I don’t take it as a do-it-yourself sort of thing, should be understood that external things are supposed to warm a human up.

Anyway, all these small things and, of course, the realisation of their existence, make my day so much more worth being in and a part of. Which leads me to thinking of people taking their days for granted (wont even mention the people who don’t have anything to take granted for, that’s a whole new chapter). How sad are they? I mean, you need to be completely dead from within to be not effected by all the small things that enrich our days and make them different from the previous, even if it is slightly. I may have been exaggerating slightly in the previous sentence, but it has to be somewhat true. You need to be completely self centred to not be able to see that. Of course, there’s a very big collection of people who have never been encouraged, supported or simply motivated enough to be involved in something bigger than their own tiny issues that held no significance to the amount of stuff taking place around them.

یہ تحریر میں اس لیے لکھ رہا ہوں کہ یہ سوال میرے سے علی حسن صاحب نے کیا تھا کہ ”کیا کوئی ایسا پلگ ان بھی ہے جو بلاگر میں تبصرے کا جواب دینے کی آپشن دے، یعنی بجائے کہ تبصرے کا جواب دینے کے لیے نیا تبصرہ کیا جائے اسی تبصرے میں ہی جواب دے دیا جائے؟؟“۔تو اس سوال کا جواب دینے کے لیے میں نے سوچا کہ ایک تحریر ہی لکھ دی جائے کیوں کہ اس سے کسی اور کا بھی فائدہ ہوسکتا ہے۔

اس بٹن یعنی REPLAY بٹن کو ظاہر کرنے کے لیئے آپ کو اپنے بلاگ اسپاٹ بلاگ کی آئی ڈی معلوم ہونا ضروری ہے۔اگر آپ کو آئی ڈی نہیں معلوم تو اس کا سب سے آسان طریقہ یہ ہے کہ آپ DESIGN والے ٹیب میں جائیں اور یاد رکھیں کہ آپ صفحہ PAGE ELEMENTS میں ہی ہیں۔آپ اس پیج کا ایڈ ریس دیکھیں اپنے ایڈریس بار میں آپ کو یہاں پر بلاگ کی آئی ڈی نظر آئے گی،اس آئی ڈی کو یہاں سے کاپی کر لیں اور نیچے فراہم کیئے گئے کوڈ میں پیسٹ کردیں۔

سب سے پہلے تو آپ بلاگر میں سائن ان ہوں،اس کے بعد آپ ڈیش بورڈ میں کچھ اس طریقہ سے جائیں >> DESIGN >> EDIT HTML اس کے بعد آپ اس صفحہ پر موجود چیک باکس EXPEND WIDGET TEMPLATES کو چیک کردیں یعنی مارک کردیں۔

اب آپ اپنے براؤزر میں کی بورڈ کے ذریعے بٹن CTRL + F دبائیں اور اس میں یہ کوڈ داخل کریں۔

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تلاش کرنے کے بعد آپ کو جو لائن نظر آئے گی اس لائن کے نیچے یہ کورڈ پیسٹ کردیں۔

کوڈ کاپی کرنے کے لیے یہاں کلک کریں۔

اس کوڈ میں جو الفاظ واضح کر کے لکھے گئے ہیں انہیں اپنی معلومات سے مکمل کریں۔اور اب آپ دیکھ سکتے ہیں کہ کمنٹ ( تبصرہ ) کے نیچے REPLY کا بٹن نظر آنے لگے گا۔امید ہے آپ اس تحریر سے اپنا مقصد حاصل کر چکے ہوں گے۔

Looking around, I can always find faces that I’ve known for a while and can read like the back of my hand.. But judge them, I cant. How do you know who a human is when people have the potential to change every minute, rather every second. Its odd to see how people still expect you to understand their every gesture.. But at the same time take a shot at being under some kind of disguise to make some mystery to themselves because they believe if people knew the real them they’d be vulnerable and hence, get hurt. 

Pain and pleasure. 

If only they knew how much they’d make everyone’s lives easier/better when honest with each other. It might seem immature, childish and naive at first.. But its tried and tested that the truth always, eventually, wins.

I love this illustration. So many talented people out there, who I know will hardly get the time to go up to their full potential, but that’s how this system is built.. The fittest survive. Even though this illustration doesn’t look very animated and gives a feel of a drawing because of the rough edges, I still like it.. Maybe because of my ridiculous and unconditional love for owls.

This illustration somehow felt right.

There will always be times when I look back onto my life and think about all the things that I should/should not have done. Everything could’ve been different if only there were some issues settles, and mistakes undone. Some things if unsaid would’ve been better for more than one person involved in the intricate web of complications that we draw each other, along with ourselves, into. It amuses me how so many things that I think about that had happened in the past may seem so tiny but would have a major long term effect on everyone involved, of which they may or may not be aware of, but that’s besides the point.


But then I unwind myself from all the psychological mess I’ve spread around me and think over the person I am and can be in the next interaction or thought or action or whatever it is that I am involved in consciously… If I want to become better or live regretting what I didn’t do and whatever mistakes I committed. Then I also realise, how I should be actually happy that I have come to a mental state better than my previous self and how I have grown up mentally and can keep growing in the positive direction. Also, how all the things that have ever happened to me or whatever I’ve done and achieved in my life so far hasn’t gone to waste, instead it made me the better person I am today who can reason with herself and accept winning and losing scenarios in the same fashion. 

Every morning, upon waking and becoming conscious of my surroundings and falling in a gloomy spirit, I think of anything that needs to be done by me in the course of the day, or even at that moment, particularly. Failing to bring up some material issue in my mind, I decide that, even if there is something, it can wait till I have day dreamed about everything beginning from my birth till the day that I’m writing my will on my death bed (for the family members that may or may not exist).


An amazing thing about imagining stuff is how you really don’t do all those things or say all those things that you’ve ‘supposedly’ planned, but it still gives our heart satisfaction enough to pass on as if we have actually have gone through with what we’ve imagined. Oh well, maybe some day I do become a scientist, or a woman who grows trees all over the world for a greener tomorrow, or race at a Grand Prix, maybe even study at the best universities all over the world all my life. Maybe none of those things, maybe all of the above.. Does it matter?


It matters. What you do/don’t do in this life will make the person you’re going to be eventually. Since, all your actions involve you going through a mental process that makes the decision for you. Now, you have complete control of what direction you want your decision to go to, but you may or may not use that. That’s where intentions and mental growth etc. come in. 


Coming back to our topic of how mornings start in a very dull fashion: Well, eventually I do make out of bed, and very lethargically, cleaning up and breakfast making and eating will take place after which I’m a new person. Worrying about what I can manage to fit into this short period of time called a day, how can those things get activated, worked upon and significant amount of work has been done on something that I may work on tomorrow if I make it out of bed.


Of course, feasting throughout the day is a norm. Especially in winters keeping my animal body well fed and hydrated is the only way to survive the stress of short days and breezy nights. Just as now a days my life is like a rut which is oddly very different but at the same time more or less the same. 


All my life, though, when the night falls, the drama begins. I begin to doubt my existence and purpose.. I have a couple of fights because the end of the day’s stress is catching up on me. 


The last sentence I’ve been thinking since a couple of months: I don’t even know if I’m a good person or a bad one yet, let alone what Ill become.


Goodnight.

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2011 is to over.

Exactly a year back when I was finishing 2010, I had many goals, and challenges set for me. One of them was ‘writing daily‘ which I couldn’t fulfill. I have published 117 posts on this blog, including this one.

To tell you the inside story, I couldn’t do most of what I planned.

I had a to-do list for 2011, which is ending with less accomplishments but thankfully more learning than ever. My purpose was to do few things regularly which would make me a better person for 2011. Gladly, I’m a better person today than what I was a year back.

This time, things are changed. Instead of thinking for what to do in 2012, I have been thinking what not to do.

I want to make it clear to myself, to stop doing few things. Which haven’t been very helping to me. The idea of Not To-Do List was introduced to my by my friend Ivana Sendecka, you can read her post about here.

This is what I’m not doing in 2012. I shall try my best to stand with them all.

I’ll not

• speak (and write) unless I have something truly important to state
• be fooled again by so-called experts
• hesitate to tell the gurus/experts that they are scammers and talkers
• join any majority
• take junk food more than 5 times a month
• make promise, unless I have strong will, time and energy to deliver it
• have too many minds
• say ‘I don’t have money’
• wait it to be prepared enough to ship
• put people in my wait
• work for free
• let the stress take over me

Instead of adding many new actions, focus on changing some currents can help me get better for 2012. This is the idea.

Starting this blog on Jan 01, 2011 was one of the best actions I took this year. Thank you so much of you for knowing and reading me.

I am very much ready to be a improved person and better writer. This blog should result into something big, I think. What you say?

Friends, also tell me what is at your end? What is your Not-To-Do in 2012? I believe you should have one too. Let’s communicate more this year, I would love your comments.

Happy New Year!!! Health, Peace and Money.

Your committed,

Waqas

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